This post will goes very very personal so apologies for some of my reader who looking for fashion or beauty post, but I though I will widen my post variation realized I cannot always make a fashion or beauty related post.
Sometimes we create our own heartbreaks through expectation.
— Sitta Karina (@sittakarina) July 27, 2016
“Sometimes people just tried to being nice, and we mistaken their kindness,”
Old wise man (my aunt acquaintance tbh.) had told me, “If you falling in love with someone, fall over their ugly sides, not their best sides because if you love that person based on his/her best side, you likely will hate that person after you known their ugly side,”. Of course it doesn’t mean you must love someone with manic or abused personalities, but it does mean you must love someone with their imperfections, all in, inside and out. He said that to me known my perfectionist traits over man.
Do I hate him? after knowing his other sides? No, I don’t and probably won’t ever hate him. He, as I said before is a nice person, I like to have a discussion or stupid conversation with him, and I always admired his spirit. Thus it’s always fun to meet someone you can talk with. I do regrets being in love too fast without knowing much about him though. I don’t even know his full name back then, but I took everything as a lesson for the next time. Does it make me stop to falling love again? Maybe yes for now, because I need time to back on track before start to looking for another person. Borrowed Snow White infamous song, “Someday My Prince Will Come,” if not now, perhaps I will found ‘the right one’ someday. Maybe tomorrow, or ten years from present because no one know except God, and because love isn’t competition. Maybe I must crossed the ocean to found that person (Japan FTW) or maybe I just need to walk to convenience store nearby and bumped him at the registry.
Everyone have different ways to cope with love and broken heart *Hi Awkarin ;)*. At the end, all we looking for is happiness, being in love and loved. For now, I just relish my current feeling, the bittersweet tasted from unrequited love, being in love and getting broken heart and buy piles of liquid lipstick I haven’t add to my collection yet.